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Friday, March 28, 2008 @ 5:40 PM , life sucks.. a whole damn hell..

sometimes i think i'm always the middle man.. wondering which side to take.. on one side.. A is the closest to me.. we do many things together.. the closest in the house.. and we can even pretend as a couple.. although we do tiff sometimes.. but without a doubt.. we are close.. on the other hand.. B is pretty neutral to me.. sometimes i just love her for the things she do.. and sometimes i just wan to scold her.. or even hit her for her attitude and the things she do.. but i tried to respect her..

ytd.. B called me.. she wanted to have a little makeover for the house.. changing electrical plugs.. moving cupboards.. moving tables.. moving beds.. she wans me to persuade A.. cos i'm closer to her.. and i tried.. she refused at first.. but did listened.. when B returns home.. their personalities always leads to a quarrel.. and i always try not to interfere.. den B asks me to help in moving the drawers.. A started talking and talking.. and when i went to the room.. B started scolding A softly.. i din like tad.. becos i am close to both of them and i din wan that to happen..

their disputes make me so sad sometimes.. last time.. we had steamboat at a relative's house.. we were okok.. when B called.. she took a cab here and had no money wif her.. she asked me to ask A for money.. cos obviously anithing she wans from A.. she ask me.. so A.. which is already pretty irritated wif B.. told me to tell B that she wun lend her money.. and A started scolding B in front of everybody.. and also including me la.. like "u ar.. dun help her hor.." den B, on the phone.. started scolding A la.. to me.. "she ar.. think she everything..".. but i can't possibly leave B on the cab alone rite.. think of the consequences.. so i told A that she HAS to lend her money for cab fee.. and A started complaining loudly.. so i went downstairs to find B.. and returning bak wif her.. i looked like an accomplice.. and they started exchanging words la.. imagine.. ohmigosh!

actually B makes me mad so many times.. A bought me a mp3 last time.. it was for me.. cos A already had an ipod.. and she would not share if i wanted to borrow it.. on the second day the mp3 was bought.. i returned happily.. to do my homework wif the mp3.. she left a note.. stating she borrowed it.. i was speechless.. and so pissed off.. just becos her ipod was spoilt.. doesn't mean she can borrow my mp3.. and i onli had it for a day.. and din even use it for more than 2-3 hours.. tad's just a pinch of wad i can complain..

she owns me money.. since young.. accumulated to hundreds.. i mean.. would u consider a shame if u had to borrow from someone younger than u.. who had only $1-2 for pocket money per day?? all tad money she borrowed from me came from savings.. angbao money and edusave bursary money.. she makes me mad..

at this point i'm typing tis.. my asshole laptop decides to lag on me.. damn u.. plus todae my desktop also dunno wth wrong wif it.. so todae the rate of vulgarity is shooting up towards an alarming rate.. seriously i bth liao.. and cos the desktop was touched last by B.. so the blame.. has to point to her.. y other ppl (which is me) use nth wrong.. u use instantly something wrong.. i'm tired of using technology.. plus todae no Survivor showing.. i intend to play desktop de lor.. now cannot liao.. i also dunno wad to do.. evening spoilt..

den the makeover includes changing the plug.. which is so troublesome.. and nids money.. seriously recently ther's a nid for cash... my damn lameass laptop charger is spoilt.. and since warranty does not cover physical damage.. i have to buy a new one.. $160.. damn shit.. but i haven buy yet.. den wif todae's shitass desktop's problem.. which is unable to locate the "A" drive.. den emiting a siren.. which is *speechless*.. technican fees.. i wonder how much it will cost.. cos the desktop onli been fixed less than a month ago.. now probs agn.. damn.. last time fee was $90... shit desktop.. turn into scrap metal better.. den now the family will start blaming for the fact that my poly fees nid $1000++.. which the bill will come within tis or next wk.. so the money problems are just overlaying..

well.. my family can onli blame for a useless man in the family.. which is the oldest in the family.. supposingly the "man" of the house.. but does not contribute much.. he does not giv my mum allowance.. whereas my allowance came from my mum.. imagine tad.. he does not contribute around the house.. we nv spent a dinner together since dunno when.. my wardrobe has less than 1 piece of clothing contributed by him.. my studies.. he does not give a shit.. he kips complaining abt the bills.. and always ask us to either contribute or use less.. but hey.. he paid for dialup last time.. he does not wan to change broadband at all.. my mum took the responsibility to pay for broadband.. and he's still complaining.. my mum has to pay her phone bills.. my phone bills.. the cabletv bills.. and expenses for her kids are more than wad HE has to pay for HDB loaning.. water bills and electrical bills.. and HE'S STILL COMPLAINING!! he recently won lottery.. and when asked to pay my school fees.. only half of my school fees only.. and excuses came.. he even came to tok to me.. and say if only my mum was more understanding.. HEY? u have extra money.. u have to support ur child.. UNLESS u wan to say i'm not ur child... well.. i dun care whether he's my father or nt.. i dun giv a shit.. he's irresponsible.. when one time the both of us are at home.. he's lying on the sofa.. i'm doing the laundry.. WHEN he's the OLDEST of the family.. and i'm the YOUNGEST..

he also has that stupid habit.. of eating food.. and when it's left till bits or only one piece left.. he'll leave it there.. he thinks.. ohh.. i din wan to finish it.. so u guys can eat it.. i think.. BULLSHIT..!! u just din wan to throw it away.. maybe u just tink tad throwing away a box or wad is troublesome for u to do so.. i dun wan anitink to do wif him.. nth at all.. he doesn't wan to care abt me and the family.. i wun giv him a chance to do so.. i wun respect him.. i wun treat him as my father.. becos he is nt fit to be a parent..

on a better point.. todae THQ has announced that WWE SMACKDOWN VS RAW WILL ARRIVE IN FALL 2008..!! well.. SVR 08 disappointed me totally.. it sux.. it lags as well.. hopefully.. just HOPEFULLY.. SVR 09 turns out well.. (i hav the vid in my laptop.. but.. using blogger vids.. neh.. no way!! so youtube is a better choice)